am i ready...??

why should it end..???
i guess i haven't made any mistakes in
trying to make it up to our relationship
i guess i have done all the things to
make it grow,i have treated it like my life
not to be harmed by anybody....
but how can this feelings bring me down
it's not over yet but...
it penetrates deep inside my heart and ma mind
i feel like am i little baby in this crazy big world
lookin for someone to comfort me in the coldest night
of my daily life 'coz of loosing you
i know you're not mine but can chance give me a little more
time to show you and prove to you
that your the only one i live for in this world
'coz im expecting that you'll be there when i need you..??
but i can stand it,
i really need you this time
even if it's just a little time
can you share me just abit of it
i don't really know why am i this,im so so damn in love...
i've never expect that it would come to this
being so nervous,frightened and troma,troma
for what be the outcome and answers will be.....
can someone snap me just to wake up from this dream
that lead to my worst nightmare..huhuhuhuhuhu
am i in love or bein with you as my partner
shivers me nerves 'coz of am afraid to loose you...
it's not finished yet but am i ready....???

my so called love in my wierdest life.....

how can i be so,so paranoid when it comes to you.....
so much love i want from you,but how can it be it's like
im expecting too much but i can't even feel it...
maybe it's just that i just can't get it from now
but who knows...
maybe it's just somewhere around the corner of my doubted heart
maybe it's just that i can't....
i cant really sense it even if you show it...(dah!!)

but how can it be when it comes in being with you
im weak,weak to show my true feelings for you...
is it shyness that brings me to this feelings
or i'm just to abnormal to be with you
i can't speak up,i can't do what i want to do,
i'm like a bird in a cage trying to keep myself in a world full of harm
or is it loosing you that am afraid of...

why am i this..??
a lot of my fwends keep tellin' me i've change a lot
is it you who change the way i am
or is it renewing myself again to be
love and be loved by you
but sometimes i just can't really be who am i
'coz i always think of you,i adore you
you are my life now
and i will and always will accept the truth.
evn if were not meant to be
even if others disagree to our relationship
even if others try to break it up...
all i can say is
even if they don't like me to be with you
at least i've tried to work it out when it comes to our relationship
and at least i've experience the thing called love and be loved by you....(o.a ahhhh..!!!)